I have sinus polyps. They are not a big deal, I’ve had them for a while and have learned how to deal with the side effects that I feel from their existence.
However, I forgot to refill my prescription about three weeks ago and have begun to truly feel how nasty the side effects are when mixed with a change of weather and pollens. I had totally forgotten about the side-effects, actually.
I have slept very little the last couple of nights. It turns out I don’t have a super-virus-cold but rather a sinus infection because I’ve not taken my medication for three weeks. Go figure.
Of course, there is all this rigamarole regarding refilling the prescription. The new receptionist doesn’t know me, the old prescription is expired, the doc may need to see me before writing a new script. Finally, today, the script is written and faxed and my prescription should be ready this afternoon.
The whole point of this is not to generate sympathy, no. Instead, the whole situation in the last two weeks is making me feel sort of morose because I have yet to start running again. It is hard for me to even contemplate running or doing anything productive for that matter when my eyes feel like they may explode.
Of course, this always leads to feeling morose about a lot of things, but most especially the fact that I’ve not run since early January and even then, defining what I did in January might be better classified as limping, dragging, crying, tip-toeing, crawling, anything other than actually running.
That feeling–that feeling of not being a runner sometimes makes my sinuses feel more infected than they really are. Until I drag my ass out of bed to make some sort of semblance of productivity out of today and get this in my email inbox.
Sometimes it takes a stranger to point out the fact that no matter what goes on in your life, even if you have to bench it for a while, you are still a runner. No matter what.
Today, I needed to know that more than ever.
So now, I will go pick up my prescription in my running shoes.
Because I am a runner. No matter what.
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